s2pidity..
what i did today was unforgiveable, it was so childish and i nearly hated myself for acting stupidly. i made him angry, just by making a great deal out of a nonsense thing. grrr! i really could kill myself. i thougt i’ve grown up but nw, all i see is that same old me, selfish and self-centered, only thinking of me, myself and I. i keep pushing him away only because i wanted him so much to stay. i thought i’m strong, but why do i feel so weak now? i guess i’m vulnerable when he’s concerned.
i wish he finds it in his heart to forgive me.. im sorry.. sorrier than i could say..