Toujour Pur

i know he’s gonna kill me for doing this, but who cares? i’m just proud that he’s mine and mine alone.. haha.. i love you so much hon..

 

 

 

it has been a long time since i cried.. it seems that all my emotions are pent-up and bottled up down inside me that if i don’t let it go, i’ll burst like a volcano.. it felt good to cry.. i haven’t done this a long, long time now.. all day i smiled, showing everyone i’m the same ‘ol kat who’s jolly and who has the warmest smile.. i preocupied myself by reading a Judith McNaught book and going to the mall.. but doing those things has’nt really helped.. when i went home, the feeling’s still the same, i’m still carrying the heavy burden and the big lump in my mouth.. and here i am now, trying to pour out my soul in writing.. i somehow feel unburdened.. i’m glad i finally had the right diversion to keep myself from thinking about him and about US and the situation WE are in..

they say women are a crazy lot, unpredictable and all but i say that men are harder to read, harder to decipher, cold, ruthless and calculating species.. no one really knows how to read and understand them.. you go flinging yourself to them but all they do is thrust you away, creating a barrier no one really knows how to break.. it seems that i already gave my all.. i didn’t hold back.. am i still capable of giving more when in fact all i do is considered unnoticed? 

i want to rewind time of 2years ago.. when i’m all he cares about, when he looked at me with adoration in his eyes, when his warm and ready smile are all for me, when he still sees my importance, when i felt at peace, and when i felt that i was really truly loved.. i miss the all-familiar feeling, knowing that in today’s circumstances, nobody knows what will happen next..

i miss HIM.. truly i DO..

this one’s definitely gonna be a long night.. i don’t anticipate lulling myself to sleep..

*whispers* : goodnight, love.. i miss you.. i loved you then, i love you now and i’ll love you ’til my last breathe..

i got the chance of reading sherry’s (my classmate) blog.. WWW was written there.. i can’t help but stiffle a giggle because it has been discussed hours ago in school.. we were all aware of it’s most popular meaning, WWW means world wide web, but for our teacher, it’s What Went Wrong? everyone in the classroom laughed out loud.. we thought that it was just a joke, that my teacher has made an honest mistake.. turned up we were all wrong.. haha!

well, one might ask, how did my day turned out? i don’t know how to sum it up.. most of it was spent in school of course, occupying my day with endless quizzes and discussions plus the to and fro travel i took just to have this wretched cellphone of mine put to good use.. just today, a spent around a hundred bucks just for fare.. it’s a mere 5 peso when you look at it but if you add it up all, the sum is quite heavy on the pocket.. i just ended up asking myself, ‘where have all the coins gone?’.. favorite pasttime in school was the never ending chatter.. the whole bunch of UIC-BSIT 3B loves gossiping and laughing.. one of our topics this afternoon was about the start-blogging-so-you-can-have-money issue.. my classmate tripoli shared about smorty, blogsvertise, payperpost, blogs4money and the good it can give to bloggers.. my classmates were readily excited.. what more? the most exciting thing on earth is the topic.. what else? MONEY of course.. everyone would do anything just to acquire some of IT.. right classmates? goodluck to us.. happy blogging everyone!

one of my favorite band is the "My Chemical Romance" and they’re having a concert here in the Philippines! wow.. i would trade anything just to have the chance to watch it.. i love their music and i love the character that each of the band member exudes..